Thursday, November 11, 2010
Kinda Discouraged...
So, I have been kinda discouraged lately. Not a whole lot, but some. I am enjoying life very much. I have tons of things to be grateful for and I am. I am grateful every day that I have so much and that I have another day to become better. That's just what is bothering me. I have each day to make myself better, but I don't try as hard as I could. My biggest thing that I want to work on but don't is my weight. I am at 180 right now. I really am not liking it. Most people say they want to just get healthy and let the weight come off as it may. Me? I want to get rid of the weight because then I know I would be much more healthy. I just don't do it though. I dont' work hard to loose it. I know I could. It's not hard to put it on so why would it be hard to take off? I know if I were to exercise every day and eat right I would feel a whole lot better and look better too. I just need to get myself over what ever it is that is stopping me from exercising and eating right and change my life. There is so much that I want to do that I can't. I want to hike more. I want to go up Timp. again. I want to go skiing. I want to run more. But I can't because I am so very much out of shape. I have so much offered to me in ways to loose the weight, but I can't figure out what is keeping me from it. It's all mental I know that. I know part of it is I see people who are skinier than me and can run faster and longer than me. I look at those people and get discouraged. I think to myself, "Oh, I can never loose weight and look like them." I also think, "Oh, I can never run as fast as them." That is my biggest problem is I compair myself to others as far as my althetic abilities. But I can't do that any more. I just have to say, ok I have an hour for me. I have an hour to exercise and make myself feel and look better for me. It doesn't matter who else is at the gym. It doesn't matter if anyone else notices if I loose weight. As long as I am doing my best then that is all that matters. I am making my life better. I am not making anyone esle's better or miserable but me by either doing something about it or just sitting compairing myself and pep talking through blogging. I just have to do it. I have to make the change happen.
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"The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." -Some ancient dead chinese guy I think
I agree with you -- you can't compare yourself to others; when I do that, it steals my motivation to do the things that I should to improve myself.
And in fact, if you've got fun and physically active things to do that you enjoy, that'll make it easier too. Anything to get your mind off of "losing weight" and onto "having fun" will help. See if you can find a local hiker's club or something. Get on an e-mail list, and go in a group. Go with already existing friends, whatever.
Or try a new sport. I've always meant to get more heavily into swimming to get more in shape. It's such a unique feeling to swim, and I enjoy it alot. Just think how strong both of us could get if we went swimming for an hour every other day?
Anyways, just remember that your friends love you and support you no matter what you look like or weigh. And even though I haven't seen you in awhile, you are still my friend. :) Cheer up!
Thanks Kyle! I appriciate the support! I would get into swimming but I don't really have anywhere to swim.
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