Power Beyond My Own

This has been a pretty good Christmas.  What made it so great?  I got to spend it with my family who loves me.  I also found more of the power of the Atonement.  The power beyond my own strength.
On Christmas Eve I experienced the most spiritual, emotional and mental pain I have felt in a long time.  I couldn't breath very well. 
My father gave me a blessing to help heal me from a situation.  While the situation did not go away I felt the greatest love and power from my Heavenly Father and Savior through my earthly parents.
While I am not trying to brag about my parents being so great I am testifying of the love and power of the Atonement and my Heavenly Parents.  They chose to show that love through my early parents.  For others it may be through a friend or a spouse.
I was shaking and hyperventilating.  I was holding on to my father and I couldn't let go.
My father sat me down to my mother and I curled up in her arms and held on to her.
I was this way for a good while.  While I never want to go through anything like that again I do know that the Atonement healed my heart.  I was holding on to something.  I couldn't let it go and Heavenly Father through the power of the Atonement showed me He has a bigger plan.  What that plan is I don't know.  I have to discover my faith and trust in His power.
Was this path and what I went through wrong?  No.  Was my friend who I experienced it with wrong?  No.  In fact because of him I learned even more the power of the Atonement and the great plan of Heavenly Father.  While I had such plans and hopes and dreams it was not what Heavenly Father wanted. 
It tools a night of excruciating pain to make me realize this.  But I needed it. 
Sometimes the greatest pain will cause the greatest understanding.  We have to trust in the power greater than ourselves.