Tuesday, April 10, 2012

"What Matters Most?"

So, I have been thinking a lot about some things in my life lately and pretty much overworrying and overhinking them.  I have decided that I am just not going to.  I can't.  There's no point in worrying about things I can't control. 
I see a lot of people younger than me dating, getting married and on their second or third child.  Yes I get down.  Yes I get depressed and wonder why am I not worthy to have a spouse and family.  But you.know what?  In the words of a latter day prophet, "What matters most?"
Yes, ultimately I desire above all things to have a family of my own.  But that is not in the God's deck of cards for me right now.  Right now I am to learn what I can and have fun being single.
What matters to me most right now is becoming the woman God wants me to be.  I can't worry about what everyone else things I should be doing or if they say I am the next one to be married.  they don't know that.  Only God knows.  I am to learn and grow and take care of the sphere I am in right now.  If a door opens and opportunity arises sure, I'll see what that door will lead to.  (If it's right of course.)  But I can't and will no longer worry about what will happen and why something isn't. 
Will I slip up and have my down days?  Sure.  Guess what?  I am human.  I am not perfect.  I still wonder and worry.  But I can give that all to the Savior and move on to become better.  That's what His Atonement is for.  That is why He bled and died for me.  So He can understand how I feel and give me the strength to overcome those dark hours.

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